Wednesday, January 9, 2008

Zindagi kis taraf ja rahi hai.....

One of the things which bothers me THE MOST is the uncertainty in life. I know, I know , I am not the only one. This is something that bothers everyone. We are all afraid of the unknown.

But if you take my case in particular, not many things in my life have gone the way I planned. I really didn't imagine I would be living the kind of life I am living today. I don't know if this is better than what I had imagined or worse. But, it is different. Very very different. No regrets though. I am very happy with my life. I have always welcomed whatever life had to offer me.

But I always wonder why I couldn't achieve what I set out to. Is it because I dreamt too big ? I don't think so. My dreams were pretty reasonable and attainable. I didn't dream to do anything different from what any normal person in my position does. Is it because I lack the will power and determination ? Maybe. But I do know there was no lack of effort from my side. But yes, I have never been stubborn with life. If it has not given me something, I tried till I got tired but didn't really fight for it. I explored for other opportunities and grabbed what came my way and moved on with life happily. I don't know if this is the right approach.

I have been thinking about this more lately, because when I try to glance into my future, I don't see anything. Blank. I have no idea which direction my life is going. Too many things are happening right now at a very fast pace and I am just going with the flow. But then again, even when I did see into my future, things didn't happen the way I imagined. So, does that mean I stop imagining ? stop dreaming ? stop planning ?

Its so funny because as I write this, a wonderful thought struck me ! I think I can draw a parallel here from my workplace! I work in an MNC as a contractor. They brought me in to work on a technology that's just been introduced in the market. All the tasks and deadlines were planned assuming this technology would work fine. That did not happen. Because its recently been introduced, there is hardly any support available. So, what did we do ? We tried with all our might to make it work. We even got hold of the engineer who actually developed this product and had him help us. It still didn't work. We explored other similar products in the market and started using them. Needless to mention, we ran into several problems with this other product too. And yet, none of the deadlines got pushed. Things have so far been on schedule despite the numerous glitches we have faced in this past one month.

This is the truth with most business organizations. Things don't go the planned way. But still, we never stop planning ! Sometimes deadlines get pushed , sometimes we need to devise workarounds for some problems. Imagine how much 'more' mess and chaos will be caused within the organization if we don't plan.

So, the bottom-line is I will plan. Maybe I cannot eliminate the mess and chaos in my life entirely but I can definitely try to reduce it and keep it to minimum. Things may not happen the way I imagine, but I will not stop imagining. That still does not explain why I could not achieve what I set out to. Someday, I will find an answer to it too....maybe ( I cannot say it with certainty :P )

6 comments:

a Sane man said...

Keep evolving!

Just curious! said...

If you don't plan, you plan to fail!
Plan karneka, that's the best case scenerio, which may not happen but atleast you avoid the worst case scenerio :-)

And Captain Murphy says..... said...

i am there to give u company...
Going thru the same rite now:)
Best soln when u dont get what u really want:
have a good cry...get it out of ur system and then get on with ur life:)
As long as u have put in ur 100% there is nothing to regret.......

One peaceful, evolving world said...

u'll b surprised to know that had life been so certain and so predictable it would've been boring....very very boring...its better this way when actually u have something exciting to look forward to...yes true that sometimes plans fail but u must have seen miracles happen too(when actually u don't plan much and get the results)...2 sides of the same coin...so treat uncertainty as a fun element in ur life.

simplyme said...

Tagged you!

Sameer Kunde said...

I'm sure you know Heisenberg's Uncertainty Principle. It is not just in the Physics texts, it applies to life too. The more accurately you know the velocity, the lesser the accuracy in the position. Similarly, more meticulous the planning, less predictable is the outcome. So plan less and just enjoy whatever comes to you.